Still Waiting

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

hmm... i was in the toilet washing clothes today, and i remembered it was going to be my father' birthday this sunday, feb 6th. this year he bought a lot of things for us, an acer laptop, a powershot A85 canon camera,nokia 6230 for my sceond sis and samsung E600-c for me. all our dream stuff he had bought for us. his bdae this year will surely recieve a big present from us( 3 daughters) but, WAD to buy for him???

??!?!!?

it has been on my mind for a long time, but i just cant think of wad to buy him. a wallet?? nah, we've bought him wallets almost every year on his bdae. is getting boring. T.T hmmm.. clothes? of cos not.. still remember my mum bought a t-shirt for him last year, he onli starting wearing it this year. over 12 months lor.."-_-

haiz... wad to buy him?!?!?!?!??!?! i seriously have no idea at all.(pls give comments and ideas, god!) well anyway, this is no the main point at all.

hear this. u'll think that its weird too.

i asked my mum wad she'going to buy for daddy.

she said she's not going to buy anything.

wad the?????!??!!!

and i ask her, "like tt one meh??"

and she said, "aiya, ur dad oso nv buy aything for me on my bdae..den i buy for wad?"

i was like.. omg.. n i started to think...sometimes when my class mate did not buy any bdae present for me, i'll definitely not give back any too (unless he/she is good). but.. the thing is... this thing...is between my parents!! couple leh.. so selfish??? shld b loving ritE?? i guess they dun love each other anymore, or is that my mum doesnt love him anymore. yeah tts wad i think... everytime we go shopping, she'll walk far far behind my father, n i'll be trapped in btwn, HOLLERING and my father to slow down and my mum to walk faster. or vice versa. its always like this. no lies man. so all along i've always thought that such things are common between married couples (at the later stage) and oso from the fact that my grandmother sleeps in a different room from my grandfather(but he passed away recently)

but i've heard from my friends, their parents are kinda loving, esp eugan's parents.. he'll feel like a light bulb when going out with his parents. his parents still hold hands.. OMG so sweet lor..so envious too~~

ok, back to the story... so, i was thinking.. why are they together since they dun love each other anymore?(or rather, my mum doesnt love him) why did they get married? why did they have kids?(meaning me n my sisters) and the answer was simple. because feelings fade. i guess my mum's feelings for dad has faded.. so, this lead me into thinking again, will there be everlasting love on earth??will i get married in future?? =p all love started sweet ,nice, and every good stuff.. and couples got married because they love each other. BUT.. in the end....

when feelings fade??? wad do they do?? well some divorce, but some remain quiet and lead his/her own life. so isnt that unfair to the other partner? hmmm...

anyway the main point is not that, its that.. does marriage really kills? i think so. but since i've not experience marriage before, i'd better not comment. haha later say the wrong stuff.

haiz. really dun understand my mum anymore... anyways i believe my father still likes her,but my mother's side... i better not say anything laaaaa.....

AND!!!!

i've been quite fustrated with my mum nowadays... WAH LAO~~ we always quarrel, because of one reason. i didnt do ALL the housework for her. wah i'm so stressed by her already lor... always have to do housework.. and when i dont, she'l be sighing all the way. sighing is the way i recognise her ok. and it REALLY PISSED ME OFF. and when i do housework, she'll still be sighing around the house TOO! i feel sooooooooooo bloody pissed when i'm at home. so i rather finish washing clothes and dishes and get out of the bloody house. so mad at her lor.haiz. i noe i shld not b feeling this way but i cant help it. i love playing the computer. is that SUCH a big faulT???? watch tv oso not happy, play com oso not happy.. go out oso not happy.. do housework oso not happy.. TELL ME WAD SHLD I DO TO MAKE HER HAPPY!!????! i really had enuff of her le lar. in the past i didnt even do abit of housework when i was schooling..(n was nagged at by sisterSSSSSSS)now i do my bit(though not ALOT) she still not happy... WAH LAO STRESSED AR! arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............ hmmmpph!!! compared to some of my friends, not to mention do housework, they dun even noe HOW to do housework lor. so m i considered such a FAILURE at home??!

?!?!?!? wad the!!??!??

i seriously gotta get a life man.

so freaking troubled this few days... haiz. mainly those irritating guys, MUM, and friendship. haiya dun wana say liao. jus hope all of us can make it this friday. =S

-when are you coming back? ;